Leaving on a Jetplane

It was past 89 days when I planned to leave the Philippines.. Here I am alone in my room. Just arrived from Palawan to leave my kid to my folks so I can explore a bigger world out there. Whatever's in store for me in Singapore, only God knows.

True, What Abby Wants, Abby Gets... Most of the time, I have always been lucky when it comes to my career progression. I've known to be someone who climb the ladder step by step as I enjoy every moment of my fame. Now, as I leave everything in the Philippines and try my luck in the far away land where no one knows who Abby is.. I am up for the challenge. Indeed, it'll be a whole new world for Me.

As I leave, I'd like to thank everyone who supported me all the way.

To my Prudential Family- Angels... Forever tayong Angel.. lilipad, walang makakapigil.

To my Dell Family... starting from Team Witchikels, this is where I started and where I proved that if we have one common goal, we can make it to the Top. My unbeatable team... Number 1. You will always be remembered.

Team Voyagers, where I learned to compromise. I learned a lot from you guys and I'll see you in SG. :)

To Team Baretta.. rags to riches.. sino mag aakala, mula sa alikabog, kaya natin lumutang at mamayagpag at maging number 1 , 4 months straight in a row. I'm proud of you guys.

At syempre, Ang Team Princess Sali.. partner ko, RS.. salamat! wala ng mas hihigit pa at wala kang maitulak kabigin. Kayo ang nagpakilala sa kanila kung sino tayo, kayo ang naging batayan ng karamihan at hanggang ngayon, tinitiyak kong walang makakapantay sa inyo. Wala kayong katulad!

To my JPMC Family.. Mamimiss ko kayo.. It's been a short ride but unforgetable and memorable. Lipad lang... Kapit.

Sa lahat ng naging Boss ko, Eric.. Salamat for being a fan. Kay TM Kevin Bulaclac and Thie Cadano! Green Lantern Forever, Boss Kookie, Boss Tam, Boss Alf, Boss Rhea, Boss Abi and Boss Doti... Thanks for your faith in me and it's been a great pleasure working with you all.

Sa mga Marshe ko, Anna.. thank you for being a good friend. To Joel, Jessie, Ace and Chai.. our friendship remains despite all odds.. Salamat guys. Til we Meet again.

Sa Bestfriend ko Doon, Megs... I know I have your support all the way.. as I try to reach whatever dream I still have, I am stronger because I know I have you to push me up whenever I am down.

Sa mga Dell Friends ko, Van... alam kong di mo ako pababayaan... Re-united tayo dyan. Becky, Cliffy, Chris, ... Onti nalang ang natira, matira matibay.

To my Family... Take Care of My Unico Ijo for Me. In time, when I get back, I will make you proud wherever I may be.

To Juri.. Ikaw ang Buhay ko. Mawala na ang lahat ng lalaki sa buhay ng Mommy, You will forever be a part of me and you will always be my source of inspiration and happiness. Study Hard Anak and I will Miss You.

Sa lahat ng mga kaibigan ko, both andito at nag aantay doon... Iisa lang naman ang gusto natin pare pareho... Maganda at Masayang Buhay... Sa mga nakalimutan kong banggitin, wag mag alala... may lugar kayong lahat sa puso ko.

Sana... Sana... Makita ko ang hinahanap ko. God's Will...

Wish me Luck and Pray for Me. As I leave the Philippines tomorrow, I am starting anew... I am now Stronger, Better and Wiser...

AjaH! 


                            
Hindi naman ako naghahangad na maging masaya... Sapat na sa akin ang hindi ako maging malungkot sa aking pag-iisa...

A Note for A Friend : Keep Your Faith...

I have never heard the audible voice of God; but that doesn't mean that he never spoke to me.

A friend used to ask, Why God doesn't speak to him and guide him to his direction. Now at the downiest moment of his life, he needs God guidance the most. He said maybe, because God wants us to resolve our issues and problem on our own and learn from it.

True. More often, we tend to ask God's help whenever we are in need, whenever we are in pain, whenever we are down or when we feel that the whole world shattered upon us.

I've kneeled down at Quiapo Church so many times and sacrificed physical pain in exchange of a free light spirit.

I've recited the Holy Rosary at St Jude...

I've visited our Lady of Manaoag...

I've cried numerous times at UST and talked to God for a lot of times in Baclaran. All those moments, I used to ask for answers... I asked for signs... I asked for reasons and most of all, I asked for forgiveness for all the things I've done not according to his will.

In his own miraculous ways, I've been touched and healed by his love. For a moment, I stopped and realized how blessed I am.

What am I saying? God doesn't have to speak to me for me to believe that he's just out there... watching me from afar. What I believe now is different from the faith I had in high school, even than I had when I finished college, probably even from what I understood at the time I felt I lost everything and I have no one to blame but myself. The faith I had is so much different back then.

Now, I draw closer to God, and as I make mistakes along the way.. I knew that God would understand and is not going to strike me with lightning. I knew he's there to make me strong and to make me a better person.

They say that Christ will judge the good and the bad. Everyone will get what he deserved. Those who have followed him will no more be sad. I'm sure God wants to talk to you, but you must be in a place where you can hear and you must take time to listen.

Keep the Faith.. After all these trials... There's a whole new better world for you to see. You just need to open your eyes and believe that God knows whats best for you...

                                               
Now I'm learning, beyond a doubt, Man must change from the inside out-- And that's what you say you want to do. Someday I've got to give my life to you.

How I Planned to Leave The Philippines in 90 Days

Yes, You read it right. It was December 20,2009 when I finally decided to leave the Philippines. That's exactly 90 days until my departure for Singapore on March 20, 2010.

It was a very hard decision for me to make. Considering I have a lot to leave behind, my family, my friends, my career, my car, my botique, my house, my agents and most of all, my 7 year old kid. I knew it was a choice I have to make and a choice I shouldn't regret. It took me almost more than 5 years to decide and finally took the leap. However, rather than think about the big decision, I had a dialogue with myself out loud. It activates my brain in a way that allows me to process info more clearly.

As I passed thru Donnie's station today, I saw an article that partly I could say, I've manage to do prior to me deciding on making the big choice. Thanks to Cosmo, here's a few tips to follow for you to make a choice you'll never regret…


1. Go With Your Gut Instinct
In making simple choices, it pays to be rational. Bit when it comes to bigger ones - you're better off listening to your instincts. If you already weigh your pros and cons, let your snap judgement be the tiebreaker and go with what just feels right. Over the year, my instinct never fails me, so I am confident that this life changing decision I made definitely should be something I'd stick to and should never regret.

2. Get into a Stress-Free State
We tend to act rashly when were nervous or upset. Anxiety not only makes it more difficult to settle on something but also actually makes you more likely to come to the wrong conclusion. the day before December 20, 2009, I spent wonderful vacation with a friend down South in Batangas. Away from all the busy world in Manila, where stress and pressure doesn't exists. I tried to release all tension and stress before I finally decided that, YES.. I am leaving.

3. Talk it over with a Select Few
Chat about your predicament with your close friends, your Mom or your Sister, or your Bestfriend or whoever you trust to give an honest opinion. Thanks to my good friend ( you know who you are ) for giving me all the Pro's and Con's and for inspiring me to take the leap and take another challenging step in my life.

4. But avoid discussing it with everyone
Soliciting too many opinions -- especially from people who don't know you that well -- can leave you with lots of conflicting advice. Before seeking for someone's opinion, ask yourself if the person is really in a position to know what's best for you. If the answer is no, keep it to yourself.

5. Blow Off Those Who Are Pressuring You.
Distance yourself from the person pressuring you while you sort out your thoughts or stay away from those that may stop you and hinder you from following your dreams and desire.

6. Consider the Long Term Consequences
Some decisions make short term sense, but in the long run can be disastrous. A good rule of thumb: Play out each possible scenario in your mind and consider the outcome before making a controversial move. Always think about … After 5 years? After 10 years?

7. Put down the Tequila
Cocktails and alcohol make it easier to act., though alcohol can relax you while you're agonizing over a choice, more than that can cloud your judgement. So make sure when you decide and make a choice, ensure that you're not drunk and you're in a proper state of mind.

8. Keep In Mind That You Can't Always Use The Past To Predict The Future
It's important not to rely simply on experience. In our rapidly changing world, assess each new opportunity with a fresh mindset. What happens in the past stays in your past and learn from it. Never use it to predict whats gonna happen next.

9. Sleep On it
But Just for One Night - Unconscious deliberation can help you analyze your options and come to a conclusion.

10. Don't leave it Up to Chance
It can be dangerous to make a major, life-changing choice based on what your horoscope instruct you to do. yes, it's definitely fun to let these things influence small decisions , but the bigger stuff should not be left up to the stars. Being a true blooded Gemini, I often believe that my horoscope plays a very special part on my decisions day by day. But when making big decisions like this… My horoscope and Me, being a Gemini doesn't have anything to do with it.

Now, before deciding to do anything. Try these 10 steps and see where it concludes your decision. My fate depends on the choices I make today. Maybe, at one point to another, I may have screwed up and hurt myself but then again, there isn't any regrets in my thoughts and in my heart for I know, before I come up to any decision… I've think about it more than a hundred times and ready to suffer and face the consequences.

Sabi nga ni Bob Ong …

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